A First Date

Today I had a 'first date'. I've never really had a 'first date' like today. My last boyfriend, when we finally had our first date we'd already been together over a month. But today was different.

I had been told I had to see Fenwicks Christmas window before I went home by Chris. So today at 11 I was picked up and driven to Newcastle. In the snow! It was a day that I am sure will take me a long time to forget. Although I'm not sure if I actually will ever forget it. It snowed on and off throughout the day. I was taken to see Fenwicks Christmas window, which I'll admit, was amazing to see. Taken to the toy section of Fenwicks as he always has to go there. Then we went to Pizza Hut and then he took me to a museum. Not sure this was his wisest idea. There was a model of a t-rex skeleton. I have to admit, my childhood fears of it coming to life came back. He must have thought I was a right nutcase. I actually ran past it just in case! And the other times we went by it he actually had to hold me hand to prove I would be fine. I think he discovered a lot about me today he didn't actually know.
This didn't put him off.
We stayed in Newcastle longer and then we went back to the car. And we saw the Millenium bridge all lit up. So he took me there and we just stood on the bridge for a while taking it all in. I'll admit, it's been a long time since I was that happy. It was a beautiful sight. It really was. He did seem to have fun making me jump at the thought it may move while we were on it though!
So then he brought me home and we had a chat in the car and we got where each other was at, which was great. It may be a little while before anything can happen. But there is some hope and at the moment it isn't a 'no never' its a 'no, not right now.' Which has meant we've both come away, happy. Not quite as happy as we would have liked, but still rather happy. And we are still going to be good friends. To the point we're talking now like nothing happened and we're going to have another day together before I go home next week. (We're thinking a movie day :D)

This whole day had been put together by him with no input from me. I let him choose what we did. I wanted to show Chris I trusted him. Which I do. He's an incredibly amazing guy. One who actually, I hope one day I can go on a date with and know at the end of it I don't have to sit in the car and work out how to say 'I want to say yes but I can't' too. But can sit and go 'with all my heart...
...yes.'