So it is time to look over my past year, see what I have achieved, what I haven't done that I wanted to do, and stuff I did that I perhaps hadn't planned for.
Being me I don't really remember much of the start of the year. I remember from about April onwards. And thanks to my lack of blogging I can't really go back over that to see what I did!
So here goes.
April- hmmmm, yes, I was pleased, I had just made my first short film. I loved doing it. It was so much fun. I loved seeing my first idea that came about from a topic I found interesting when I was doing Sociology to becoming a 4 minute film! It was amazing. And then seeing it on the cinema screen being screened to 100 people was amazing. (100 people doesn't sound a lot. But to say it was my first one and now getting on for 300 people have watched it on youtube! Just makes it even more amazing!)
May- was the start of my downhill spiral. The 7th May to be exact. (I remember as it was my dads birthday.) It was the day Paul busted his knee. And that would be when he would be seeking comfort and found me. Between May and September I was a mess. I don't even want to write about it. So I will skip over June and July. Nothing exciting happened anyway. Except I did a project at college for the BBC which didn't go quite right.
August- I turned 18. And went on holiday with my friend Lizzie for 2 weeks. Although it was a good experience, I never want to do it again. It was so hard to be away for 2 weeks with my friend when she had her parents but I didn't have mine. I could only talk to mine on the phone and text them. I couldn't have a hug when I was down, I couldn't laugh with them. The other hard thing was having to sit through a number of very bad films. At home I can comment on how bad something is without feeling bad. And explain why and my family will have SOME idea what I am on about. However I couldn't do that on holiday. It was hard. Very hard.
September- September came and I had to sort myself out. In 12 months I wanted to be moving to university so I started booking open days. (I think I went on 7 all together. I applied to 4 of them.) Paul left me and I went back to college, determined to make sure I did as well as I could. Sophie went away on her BMS (gap year) training and I had to adapt to Church without her. And my best friend Lizzie who lived in London moved to university in Lecister! So now she isn't to far from me.
October- I was visiting univeristies EVERY Saturday. (And even on a Wednesday.) I found the university I wanted to go to and I am now working hard to get into there. Film club at college also started and I met Rob. I went on holiday and despite the lack of internet our friendship began via Facebook. Sophie went away to Brazil. (I should add that me and Sophie have known each other since we were 4! We're now both 18!) I can only contact her via email now. And Facebook. It's hard. And adapting to bus journeys without texting her and not seeing her at church or YPF is majorly difficult.
November- Oh dear, November was a bad month. Things with Rachel got out of control when she got jealous that she liked Rob but he liked me. Neither were talking to me properly. My university application was getting sorted. My personal statement was my new battle. I knew I could get the grades, but if my statement was bad I wouldn't even get an offer. I also started doing Christianity Explored. To refresh myself of what I believed after my shit summer.
December- I sent of my university application! Things eventually got better with Rachel and with Rob. I made my first Music Video for a local band. And it came out not quite how I had pictured it. But I am very pleased with how it came out. (Nearly 300 hits in 3 weeks!) And Christmas came. As did the parties. Anyway, me and Rob got together. (Highlight of the year!) Christmas came and now I am writing this with New Year approaching!
So my year was a real mix again. Again I have grown up and I am now LEGALLY an adult. The government believe I am old enough and mature enough to do everything EXCEPT have their job! (Which I can't do till I'm 21 apperently. Damn.)
I have got so much out of this year. And hopefully in 12 months time I shall be telling you about my start at university!
I read an amazing quote the other day, which I think is the best quote I have read ALL year. It comes from Taylor Swift's most recent album. Incase you don't know, I shall explain. She writes songs about experiences she and close friends have had. This album is called 'Speak Now' and is songs based on things she wished she had said. So this is the quote from when she is explaining this at the start of the booklet in the CD.
"There is a time for silence. There is a time for waiting for your turn. But if you know how you feel, and you so clearly know what you need to say, you'll know it." Taylor Swift
Taylor Swift has become a MASSIVE influence to me. She is amazing. She is extremely beautiful and learns from her mistakes and teaches teenage girls like me them. Hey if she was known over here when I met Luke, maybe I wouldn't have got together with him. And if I had paid attention not got with Paul either. But they are my mistakes, things I messed up on. And I will learn from them.
All thats left now is for me to make my new year resolutions. They need to be realistic and things I can keep. So this could be hard.
- I need to really get stuck back into my faith. Reading the Bible is so important and if I am honest, I SUCK at it. I rarely read it on my own. So thats number 1. (Again.)
- I have become more organised, now I need to push myself. I need to aim for the best I can. Not average. THE BEST!
So that's it. Thats my year. I am ready for 2011. All the challenges it brings. The highs and lows. The good times and the bad times. I am stronger than ever and ready.
Thank you for hanging in with me this past year. I hope you had a great Christmas and have a wicked New Year.
TTFN
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