Please can everybody just go away?

And never come back?

Is there any chance of that happening?

I doubt it very much.

CAUSE EVERYONE IS ALWAYS WAITING FOR ME TO SLIP UP!!!!

Or to do something stupid.

Forget to do something.

Or do something horrible.

To do something that's not like me.

And I can't take it anymore.

I really don't want to anymore.

I really feel like I run the house I live in.

Like I am the only one who will willingly do anything.

Everyone feels like everything is a chore.

David won't do anything that means helping somebody else.

Mum is a work-a-holic. Everything she does and everything she thinks revoles her job!

And Dad is a dick! Who makes a big deal out of everything. And looks for a fight in everything.

But no-body ever ever believes me about that.

My mum will make phone calls when we are out to work.

FFS she even kept calling work when we were out for my birthday dinner this year! Kept disappearing.

Do you know how much that hurts?

And now I am at college and so much is being crammed into my head it hurts. Literally.

Today was 3hours of learning how to assemble tripods and cameras together.

And about HDTV and different lines and stuff.

Just being put into your head.

And colours. All those colours on the colour bar.

And my dad thinks he knows everything but he doesn't.

He really doesn't.

And of course I was welcomed to the morning routine again.

A routine of some arguments and yelling and accusations.

AND PEOPLE WONDER WHY I LIKE TO BE OUT OF THE HOUSE!!!

WHY I HATE COMING HOME FROM ANYWHERE!

99% OF THE TIME I WOULD RATHER SPEND ALL DAY AT COLLEGE.

And I have my wish now don't I!!!

9 hours of college on a Friday!!

JOY!!!

I hate my dad so much sometimes.

So so much.

I know it is horrible to say it.

But sadly it is so so true.

I am being totally honest.

Promise.

I swear.

And it would hurt him so much if he knew.

But I wish he did.

I thought my threat of moving out if he didn't start getting some help would be enough to make him stop.

But it hasn't been.

It's not even like I can go away at half term to London because I am going on a NICE holiday with my family.

I am hoping to have plenty of work to do so they can go out together and I can be on my own.

I hope that happens.

Right now I couldn't give a rats arse about anything.

I just wanna shout and scream till there is no energy inside of me to do anymore and do a little but more.

I don't give a shit that there is still a load of washing up to do and that everything still needs drying up

I DON'T CARE PLEASE EVERYONE JUST GO AWAY!!

PLEASE!!

PLEASE.