So I feel utterly alone and forgotten and left at the moment. My brother is out, my mum is watching crimewatch which scares me and my dad is watching some crap on BBC 4! So I am breaking my own rule and I am sat on here writing to nobody and ranting and pouring out my soul to complete strangers. Ah well. Nobody listens to me anyway so I shall just rant away on here though I have nothing really to rant about. Actually I do. So here goes.
My dad is always moaning about how im not educated enough (actually my mum does to) and so I was watching coast with them which is one of the few programmes where they teach you stuff that I will watch cause it is done in the right way but my dad banished me to the kitchen to do the watching up! Which sucks balls. WE NEED A FRIGGING DISHWASHER!! But you know what we cant have one cause dad keeps smashing the crockery so we have to spend money replacing that instead. Which also sucks balls. I WANT A DISHWASHER!!! I am sick of having to wash up all the time. From David especially. Actually I have now given up washing up after David. He is 15 and can learn to bloody wash up himself.
And I am also missing Lizzie. She is on holiday in spain. I miss her. I know I saw her on my birthday but I really do miss her. So much. I miss talking to her. But once she gets back we are gonna have one of our days out. If there is nothing at the cinema maybe we can go to Derby. I need some stuff clothes for college and Derby Westfield has loads of clothes shops so we can go there. Good times. Also it is all undercover which is good seeing as we have had such crap weather this summer.
I think that is another thing that has made me all down in the dumps. Theres been little sun out. Which is baaaad. The sun makes me happy. And it is so dark as well. Its like 9:30pm and it is pitch black. A few weeks ago it was still sunny. I mean what does this country play at?? Where is the frigging sun?? And where have the long days gone?? (I am trying very very very hard not to swear in this. As I know it is wrong and I am trying to give it up. Wait...Is Frigging swearing?)
Also its results day on Thursday. Groon. I hate results day. I just know I havent done very well and I am sure I could have done better. But I had so much on my mind. Like breaking up with Luke. Believe it or not a lot of heavy thinking and praying and talking went into that decision. But you probably know that from blogs back in May. Well what there is of them. I have been a rubbish blogger recently. But that is because nothing is happening.
But yeah. I am sure I could have done better in my exams. But heyho. I guess at that point I knew I was leaving so kinda gave up. But I didnt feel like I got much help and support. Teachers would say they would help you. But they wouldnt. And my Media. Oh dont get me started on that. We had so little help it was ridiculus. Me and bethany were doing the hardest coursework in the class and we got no help whatsoever! Everyone else was only making a magazine. I mean that is pips. Just take photos, upload them, put them on the document and make some stuff up. It really wasnt that hard!! The only reason I didnt do that was cause I would have finished it in half the time.
Anyway. Its 9:35pm and I really should log of. But i'll only have a shower and go to bed. My brother as per usual will be up later then me. And he is younger then me. How come he needs so little sleep hey? It really isnt fair. I wish I could get away with going to sleep at 11 and getting up at 6. I sleep from 10:30ish till 9ish everyday at the moment. Though that isnt happening tomorrow. HAHA. Thats 11ish hours!! How come people can sleep from like 1 till 9 and stuff like that? I will never understand how people need so little sleep. I am deadly jealous. I will be the most boring person in the world to live with as I need so much sleep. HAHA. Actually my parents tell me off for sleeping so much. But if I dont get enough sleep they tell me off for being mardy. So I cant win either way so I just sleep.
Me and Sophie are going to the cinema tomorrow. Woop. We are going to see Band Slam. Yeah sounds cheesy doesnt it. But it will be nice to catch up with her and get out the house.
Right I really must go now. Its 9:40. I know I am rubbish at sleep times. But I still have to edit this. HAHA.
TTFN
Love ya
xxxx
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