I feel kinda lost today. Maybe its cause my bubble has been broken.

Its really silly but yeah I am reading New Moon now and Bella is soo lost. I can relate to Bella so much. Its mad cause...well I dont really know why. But its almost as if Bella is me.

I have decided that I love the name Isabella and am considering calling my daughter Isabella. But I still love the name Anastasia. Well lets hope I have two. Anastasia Isabella?? Or Anastasia Elizabeth?? People say Im mad when I say I want to call my daughter Anastasia Elizabeth. I mean what is wrong with that? I say nothing.

I have Lizzies old Mac now and it is spell checking everything. Its a little annoying. It spell checks everything. Its a little annoying. But i guess if it means that my spelling improves. Then all is ok.

So YPF went away this weekend. It was good. Relationships grew and new ones were made. Was good. Worth going. Got me out the house. Which is pure madness. :( I have now threatened to move out if my dad doesnt get help for his anger. Cause it is making me feel so unsafe now. And unhappy. I want to be happy. I want to be able to look forward to coming home rather then dreading it.

I want to start going out as well. Being able to do stuff. But like that will happen. Hmmm. To much looking after David over the summer I guess Also my parents have said that I have to do 10 hours of work around the house to earn this Mac. So not fair. I mean 10 hours is loads. But hey ho. I could have the weekends off and do 2 hours a day during the week :D

Oh well. Bad times.

TTFN xxx