All about HER!

So I have a few MEGA updates for you So I'm gonna list them.

1. I am OFFICALLY LEAVING Bluecoat after yr 12! Cause I got a place on the Media Diploma course at Confetti starting September.
2. My friend Sarah is coming as well.
3. My friend Rachel says I should blog my prayers so I do. Though there is only one there. And you cant read them. Only God. Cause he is AMAZING!!
4. I spoke to my friend Maryam on Tuesday night and it was good.
5. I am soooo looking forward to seeing Bjorn Again on Monday night.
6. I am struggling with my college work
7. Aimee got on my nerves on Thursday cause she kept wanting to talk on Thursday but I didnt cause I was shitting myself with nerves about my interview.
8. The book 'I kissed dating Goodbye' that I am reading is still a working Progress.
9. Drama is getting hard. And there is soo much blocking that needs doing.
10. And of course lines to be learnt. Which are just annoying me cause I need the motivation to do them.
11. Rachel says that people are concerened about my safety cause of what they read on here.

So yeah. There are 11 updates for you. I havent blogged since Tuesday I think. So there are plenty there. As you can see my life has some up and downs at the moment. Luke is obviously and UP Aimee well at the moment shes a DOWN. But I think I shall get over it and live. Sadly she txted me yesterday asking me to go on MSN to 'talk' but I was about to get in the bath and I have no credit so couldnt text back. AND I GOT CALLED INTO MISS WHITEFOOTS OFFICE ABOUT THE FALL OUT! Bloody hell. Aimee really really really doesnt understand that I cannot do that kinda thing. Sometimes I feel that it all has to be about her! Let me tell you why yeah. If your reading this Aimee dont stop. I'm not being rude but you need to understand this.

Right so when I was in year 10 my best friend would miss school quite often. She would be fine then miss a day or two and come back and say that she had been 'ill'. As she had a history of skipping school thats what I thought it was. Then all off a sudden she missed about 2 months of school. She didnt contact ANYONE for a whole 2 months. Rumors started going around that there had been an accident when she was in Africa, that she was pregnant. I thought that she may have died. ( I know slightly drastic but...) Anyway when she came back she was only in for 1/2 days having left due to panic attacks and depression I think it was. And she would still miss school loads throughout year 10 and 11. Which was awful for me cause I didnt know whether she would show up or not. And everytime she came back she expected things to be as they were. Best buddies help each other to work and she was my only friend. But she wasnt. Lizzie, Dolly and Maryam were my best friends now. And she couldnt grasped that.
Eventually I snapped as I couldnt take it anymore and I txted her to say I couldnt be her friend anymore. She was putting me down and had knocked loads of my confidence out of me. Friends and family had noticed. EVEN LUKE HAD NOTICED!! AND HE DOESNT EVEN LIVE IN NOTTINGHAM!! So she had a day or two off and came back in with her councillor. I got called into a meeting and forced to talk and explain and apologise and say I would be her friend about. I was pushed and forced into that at that meeting. Thats why I cant do that anymore. And that is why I shouted at Aimee. Cause all I could hear wasnt her talking to me but Lauren and Ms Thomas and everyone. All I could see was that. AND THAT CANT HAPPEN AGAIN! EVER!

Sorry. So thats when I changed. And Aimee thinks I have changed since I have become friends with Catherine and Beca which is complete Bullshit cause I havent. I have just come out of my shell. So yeah. If she cant deal with it then dont. Sorry.

So yeah. That is myblog for the day. Now I should really go and do some work. And learn some Drama lines.

Love ya
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