School system is fcuked up

Yh so everybody is having hell logging on though my account doesnt have a problem. YET! But I'm at home. I finish at 10 on a wednesday so come home 2 'work'. i have done some today. Not loads cause I don't have much but I done some.

My mother dearest and I have justed made Beef and Kidney stew for dinner. YUM!! And then we are having homemade rice pudding for pudding! So much goodness and healthy. YUM. Can't wait for dinner now. LOL.

Of course I am listening to my darling Chris Tomlin again. I can't stop listening to his 'Hello Love' album. It is just so good. Maybe I should listen tone of his other albums when this album finishes. I just love him so much. His voice I think is just magical. It stays in your head and you can jsut drift off qith some of his songs and you can't help but sing along and worship God! He has such an amazing voice.

My drama coursework has now OFFICALLY been set. I have to write 3000 words. ONE 2 PLAYS!!! Mr Mansell says that isn't nearly enough and we need 3000 words for each play but we don't think thats what the examining board want. LOL. The specification is very specific. He says it is quite vauge. But I think 3000 words is a lot. Its like 5 pages!! :O I mean thats loads. LOL.

One of my RE teachers has just rung to speak 2 my mum. Then she wants to speak to me and I dunno what about. *Speaks on phone* Ok. So i have had Us on both my recent timed essays in RE and my teacher is wondering if i need to drop the course. I don't want to as I love the subject but thats what she thinks i might have to do. I really don't want to drop it. It makes sense in my head but I just can't get it on paper in 30 mintues. Its stupid. I run out of time. And everyone is to close together. And theres always noise out in the corridor. I CAN'T EVEN DO THE FUCKING ESSAY WITH THE NOTES. HOW THE HELL AM I MENT 2 DO IT WITHOUT IN THE EXAM!!!! I really am gonna fail aren't I?? I can't though. I can't. Maybe I should just drop it. But all I need is some help. Gosh I really am thick. I knew I shouldn't have applyed for college. I am just to thick to be there. Way to stupid.